Turns out, Facebook is the real test for relationships. And it seems like nothing sends a message faster then deleting someone from your friend list on Facebook. And after way too many emotional ups and downs with a certain someone, I decided to delete him from my Facebook friends. At this point, there’s really no point. I don’t want to know what’s going on with him through Facebook. I don’t want to get messages that he was tagged in a photo. I don’t want to see any mutual friends commenting on his wall through Facebook. Too much information. I just don’t want to know.
And I don’t want him to know. I’m done. I don’t want to be friends. I want more. He doesn’t. He wants to be just friends. Unfortunately we’re not just friends. I figured what better way to tell him we’re not just friends than Facebook. And for the second time in two months I defriended him, by deleting him from Facebook. The first time it took less than 12 hrs for him to notice. And after the first de-friending I got a text message, with an apology (about the event that had led to the de-friending), saying how he would be really sad if we weren’t friends anymore. I fell for it. Let him back in to my life. Added him back on Facebook.
Then I realized things just weren’t going in the right direction. He wanted to be just friends. I have plenty of friends. I like to keep my friendships simple. I don’t need complicated “friendships.” Not the kind where there’s a lot of attraction and chemistry and spending time together, under the guise of “friendship.” I don’t have shortage of friends, male or female. And at 32, I’m not looking for a “special friend” or a “friend with benefits.” Been there, done that. A lot. Finally ready for something more. And being a faux girlfriend without benefits isn’t working for me.
So, he’s been de-friended. Again. And he noticed. Within 12 hrs. And sent me an email, through Facebook. “Again?” He asked. “Did you defriend me?” Seems like the only time he gets angry is when I de-friend him. This time, I just don’t have the energy to respond. I’m exhausted. I just can’t be just a friend. Because I’m not.
Thank you Facebook… for delivering the message.