I finally decided to let things go. I decided to let go of the stress of finding a roommate and made the decision that I was going to stay in my apartment regardless. I figured it might be a bit of financial stress but the thought of moving was causing me too much mental stress.
I decided I was going to stay. And voila! I have found a new roommate. It was love at first sight. We met, and we instantly knew it felt right. She moves in next month. But that’s not all. It seems like when it rains, it pours and right now it’s pouring roommates. Everyone wants to be my roommate. Including the guy who backed out at the very last minute.
Friday morning, after the new roommate and I decided we were going to be living together, I get an email from the “almost roommate.” It reads:
So my brilliant last minute alternative ended up falling through (karma); any chance you are still looking for a roommate?
Nice. Thank you universe. I love how karma works. Although to M***’s credit, he did send me the check he promised. I have to say, I actually felt bad for him. It couldn’t have been easy for him to write that email and acknowledge the karmic punishment. And I also know how it feels to be left at the altar at the very last minute. Not a good feeling.
So just as I let go of the stress of the roommate search I found a new roommate. But that’s not all I decided to let go of. I decided to let go of a toxic relationship that had occupied my life for the past few months. I can’t believe that for the past four months I became THAT girl. The girl that puts up with the crap. Gives the Guy too many chances. Every time I decided to cut things off with the Guy, he came running back into my life. He would throw me a bone, showing that he gives a crap, but now I’m realizing that it was just a bone, and I like some meat on the bone and the meat wasn’t there. Friday afternoon, after another great therapy session, I decided to cut off the tumor. Which is how my therapist referred to this relationship. In her words “cut it off before it spreads through the rest of your body.”
I’ve decided to take back control of my life and let him go… I feel better already.